It's October again.

Let me feel. I dont care if I break down.
Let me fall even if I hit the ground
And if I cry a little die just a little.
I've become much too good at being invincible.
I'm an expert at play it safe and keep it cool.
But I swear this isn't who I'm meant to be.
I refuse to let my life roll over me.
So let me feel, I don't care if I break down.
Let me fall, even if I hit the ground.
And if I cry a little, die a little,
at least I know I've lived just a little.
I wanna be somebody.
I wanna face the things that I've been runnin' from.
So let me feel, I don't care if I break down.
Let me fall, even if I hit the ground.
And if I cry a little, die a little,
at least I know I've lived.

It's October again. leaves are comin' down.
One more year has come and gone,
And nothing's changed at all.
-- Bethany Joy Lenz.

let go.

you kept walking away &  my heart  r a c e d. 

your disappointment aches in me, still I chase it . 

I hold on. you've let go. hollowing my existence.

i've been e r a s e d . scratched away. burned away.

        [  f o r g o t t e n ;  ]

empty eyes. scarred heart. shattered pieces. fallen.

alone. this was me. because of you. miserable.

useless. b r u i s e d  a n d  b r o k e n . un-pretty.

thanks. 

           thanks for not loving me enough. 

for breaking me at my worst

i've forgotten you now.

     " you're nothing but trouble for me"

"Forget former things; don't dwell

on the past." Isaiah 43:18.